The Girl I Loved

a poem

When I loved you 
I wasn’t sure you would love me back. 
And I cared less if you did. 
I just hoped you would give me a chance.

I wanted to be in your life 
Not so that you would love me 
But that I would love you 
I hoped you would give me a chance

But now I wake up every morning 
And I remember you said no 
Clarified that you were not ready 
To give me a chance.

I have wanted to hate you 
Fought to get you out of my mind 
Yet the more I try. 
You mean I never stood a chance?